Time to reflect. Looking for inspiration.

I've been putting in a lot of time into contemplation. Physical training is almost down to nil while the eating hasn't slowed a bit. For the first time in a long time I've put a little weight on. Less training time means more time to think about the direction my life is going and the events of the past year. I can honestly say I feel burnt out. I have been struggling to find inspiration in anything, but after many disappointments last year I can't find "IT". I may have lost 'IT' . The meaning in what I do and why I do it? So much effort for so little gain. Not just in sport. At this point I have more questions than answers so I continue to mentally live out scenarios for next year in a hope that I will find something that will inspire me into action. Nothing so far!

Until I have that epiphany I am seeking, moving forward is the only logical action. Tammy and I have been organizing our house and shed to get ready for the wet training season coming up. We've been looking at changes to our diet and had blood tests to see where we are lacking in our supplements.
I've had to put a lot of thought into rehabbing my body as a whole after the shoulder injury. It's really amazing how the body compensates for an injury. My body is literally twisted and one shoulder hangs lower than the other when I'm in time trial position on the bike. This twisted position was re-enforced by training while still injured in an attempt to salvage the years fitness I had gained before the injury. This is an uphill battle that I am not looking forward to.

Here are some of the scenarios I have been mulling over:
Training for the Boston Marathon. I qualified last year in the Victoria Marathon. Boston is THE marathon and definitely a lifetime achievement goal. I may not have the opportunity again or at least not when i could run a respectable time. I would like to go under 2hrs:40min. This happens in April and would give me enough time to gain back my cycling and swimming that I would lose.

Another scenario is training for 1/2 Ironmans and figuring out the hydration/nutrition for them and maybe qualifying for Ironman Canada in August and putting down a respectable time.

Another is training for short course (Olympic distance)and trying to go under 2 hours for the Nationals in Kelowna in August. Then challenging the US nationals to see where I fall into the mix down there and going to the World age group championships which may be in Australia.
I qualified this year but I don't feel fit enough or motivated enough to go for it. I would like to win.

Notice there are no work goals here? Work less and make more $. Good luck !

We bought a computrainer which is an indoor machine that hooks upto the bike and adds resistance to the wheel so you can train in the comfort of your dry warm house. More importantly it reads power output in watts and has variable courses that are displayed on a computer screen in video form. VERY useful tool for gaining fitness. Gadgets are good when you need a change.

Until next time,
Allan